I’ve been retired for a week!!
Only – I haven’t.
When I first started my working life, retirement was 60 for ladies and 65 for men. And it was my 60th birthday just a week ago, so I would have been retired for a week, all things being equal.
Now, of course, it’s increased for everyone. I won’t get my State Pension until I’m 66.
But you know what? I’m OK with that. I don’t feel ready to retire.
I don’t feel 60. I’m not sure what 60 is meant to feel like, but I know I don’t feel like I think I’m meant to feel. After all, age is just a number.
But one thing that I’ve noticed is that time changes as you get older. A year passes in no time, even a decade is gone in a flash.
It doesn’t feel that long since I was 40. But it’s 20 years – and in another 20 years I’ll be 80.
It took 12 whole years for my kids to reach 12 years old – my granddaughter got there in about five minutes. I mean, seriously, how the hell did that happen?
When I turned 50 I said ‘I’m halfway – what will the next 50 years bring?’ Well, it’s the next 40 years now.
I’m still using the drink mat someone gave me for my 50th that says ’Well done, You are 50 and look pretty good’. I don’t feel like I’ve had it very long!
I have a strong feeling inside me of not having time to waste. Of wanting to get on with it, whatever it might be. There’s an urgency, a realisation that this life isn’t forever and we have to make the most of it while we can. I need to crack on.
The trouble is, Covid is stopping me doing many, if not most, of the things I wanted to do – there’s a little nugget of panic deep inside me that wonders if I’ll ever be able to do the things I’ve spent my whole life thinking I would do ‘one day’. Maybe it’s already too late.
But I still have those plans – they’re mine, and ‘one day’ I might be able to do them. Or they might stay as plans – if that’s the case, at least I’ve had the idea of them.
And if I can’t do what I wanted to do – I’ll just have to think of new plans. I don’t know quite what those might be yet, but I’m sure I’ll think of something.
Only I’ll have to be quick about it.
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